When I commenced this food and exercise regime, I little thought I would get to April 2010 never mind April 2009. I now weight 146.kilo, that’s a loss of 40 kilo. I am very proud and also very happy. I have learned so much about me. My mood swings and I have had my fair share believe me. Some days, I only felt like death warmed up, with no energy to do anything and days where the bed was the only option open to me. I know that’s not correct but at the time it was the safest method for me. I would rather hibernate for a day then pig out. Most times that, which occurred I was always able or managed to exercise in the bed. The more exercise I done the more power I was getting back for me.
I also began to see the waste of time in staying in bed. The weather of that day would not matter to me but I could see the futility in been in bed when I was able to eat and exercise and where did I put my happiness and joy. All I needed to do was pick them up and express the joy of life. It was an inside job. It was up to me to be happy and joyous. It is a great feeling when you realize you’re free to do anything you wish to just to remember the laws of your country and do not injure hurt or harm anyone physically, mentally or spiritually. All people have a right to there own piece of the planet to rest them selves after a hard day and it is not for me to be a burden to them or anyone by been a nuisance. I no longer look to anyone for sympathy for me I am awoken to life and its difficulties and problems. It is for me to seek solutions and stay in the solution and not the problem. I want now a days to be part of the solution and not the problem.
I have come a long way in terms of time, effort and I am amazed at my own personal growth which has come from dieting and exercising. I no longer stay in the mire of been fat, overweight or obese. I now work to get my weight under control and to exercise the body so as to keep it in the best shape that I can on a daily basis. No one can do that for me. I must do it for me and gain the strength each day to be happy, joyous and free within myself.
I will find as much happiness as I need today.